That Demon Named Anxiety
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That Demon Named Anxiety
Its possession surrounds my mind in a black mist,
turning and shaping me into a different being,
my body, now just a hollow vessel:
I'm scared to ask a question,
I'm scared to talk,
what embarrassing spew will rush out of my mouth today?
Who will I offend?
The demon clamps my mouth shut.
I make a tiny mistake,
the demon reminds me for hours later,
it keeps me tossing and turning at night,
taunting,
my eyes are black.
A group of people are laughing behind me,
oh God, are they laughing at me?
'Of course they are' the demon sneers.
My heart races, I feel dizzy, I feel weak.
I'm going to be a failure today,
I'm not good enough, smart enough,
enough.
A presentation in front of my peers?
I can't, I can't, I can't!
I clench my jaw, ball my fists, I feel sick.
Criticisms are like a dose of Holy water,
I recoil, cringe and burn in shame,
I knew I'd be a failure.
My friends ask me to go out,
claws dig into my mind,
I don't want to go but I can't say no.
We sit in a restaurant, everyone laughs around me,
I force a smile whilst worrying about how I'm eating.
'All eyes are on you' taunts the demon,
I only manage ten bites.
I'm a hostage to a demon,
it won't let me pick up a phone for help.
I'm trapped.
I need help.
I need an exorcist.
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Thank you I'm glad I could portray it correctly, I used my own personal experience to write this but I know everyone has their own experiences. I feel like Anxiety and mental illness is now in the open more and it's nice that people suffering can open up and share their experiences and know they're not alone and that there is support if you need it (even if it's scary to ask for it).
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I'm glad it is open Thank you for commenting!
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It is scary sometimes, how something we can't even see can dictate the smallest things in our livesLucyFlawless78 wrote: ↑29 Aug 2018, 14:14 I like the name of this one. Anxiety is a demon. I have it & it scares me sometime s
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You an I, tonight!
You may forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.
When you have done, pray tell me
That I my thoughts may dim;
Haste! lest while you're lagging.
I may remember him!
Emily Dickinson
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I love this line. It perfectly describes how I feel when I just wanna be alone and deal with the demon.
Keep it up! Good work.
― Lionel Shriver, We Need to Talk About Kevin
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